Just Another Day in Paradise

I know, it's been a while since my last post. I have an excuse - I have been sick. I started not feeling right Saturday morning, and Sunday I woke up with a horrible headache and congestion that lasted through this morning. I spent every minute I could in bed trying to get rid of it, eating Tylenol with Codeine like it was candy and drinking prescription cough syrup so I could sleep without being woke up every 5 minutes until it finally went away. Today I still have a cough, but I found some antibiotics here at the house and I've been taking them the last couple of days and they seem to be helping.

Things are still the same here. I'm still on strike, the kids still don't listen, and Paul's still working horrible hours. The only difference is that the mortgage company has renigged on the repayment plan that was set up to get the house payment back on track from when we fell behind in May due to circumstances out of our control, so I'm trying to decide whether to sell it or just let it go when they come get it. And wondering where we are going to live. I guess you called it in October Nat... it was a nice stay here, but it's time to go. Where I don't know, but I will get it figured out, I always do. I have to - I'm the mom, right? Hopefully they approve the remodification request I sent in for the third time in as many months. They want check stubs showing my income, but how in the world can I get that to them when I don't have a job?? Idiots I tell you, they're all idiots. When I had a job I had a sign up at my desk that said, "God must love stupid people - He made so many of them!" It's downstairs on my desk now, but it just doesn't hold the same meaning it used to.

I've been withdrawn from school until I can pay for the classes I just took. Because I couldn't keep up with the International Business class I had to withdraw from it, which they didn't end up doing in time because the school sat on the request for a week and a half, so I wasn't eligible for withdraw. Instead, I failed it. So bye bye financial aid even for the class I passed with an A. So now I have to pay for two classes instead of one, try to catch up the house, keep the utilities from being turned off, along with dealing with disrespectful children 24/7. All without a job, and no hope for a job. Especially since I won't be getting my degree any time soon. I only had 9 weeks left after this block... this sucks. Every time I get close to graduating, something comes along and disrupts it. Maybe I wasn't meant to have the piece of paper to prove I know what I already know how to do and have done before but didn't have the title to go along with it.

The weight loss is going, but not too well. I managed to maintain my current weight for the last week. I didn't lose anything, but I didn't gain anything either. Small achievement compared to all of the crap that's been falling down around me. But I guess when you don't have all the junk food in the house there's nothing to grab and stuff your face with. But I have to say, I am dying for as much junk food as I can cram into my face until I puke. Trying to break the habit of being a comfort eater is hard when you keep getting thrown all kinds of things that stress you out and worry you every day. But I'm resisting the temptation to go in there, pour a mixing bowl size helping of Fruity Pebbles, adding a half gallon of milk, and stuffing my face until I can't move. The only thing that would get me is more problems, and I don't need that right now. Baby steps. At least this is one thing I have control of even though the rest of my life is spinning around like water in a toilet when it is flushed.

So, I guess the question of the day is, "Does anyone wanna buy a house?" I'll sell it cheap, it needs some work and I can't do it by myself and don't have the money to hire someone to do it. I have some of the supplies and I will throw them in the deal.

Remember, when things are looking down it could always be worse - you could have my life! Until next time...