Long Time No Blog

I know, I let the blog go for awhile - sorry. I'm finally feeling well enough to actually do something.

So I start school again today. I'm going to have to pay for the class that I didn't finish and was withdrawn from due to lack of attendance, but I got my funding back for the math class and for the classes that start today. My projected graduation date has moved to February, but it's better than being nonexistent. Hopefully I can find a job here soon without a degree that is actually worth going to work for and doesn't just cover my daycare costs and pay for transportation to and from work. I think I might have to work 2 jobs at first, but once I get comfortable somewhere and they realize that I know what I say I know but don't have a piece of paper saying so and give me a raise I think I will be good to go. I have a lead on a position that I hope I at least get an interview, and once there I think I can sell them on me. My resume is already there... I guess we will just have to wait and see!

Levi is done with regular season football. His last game was this past Saturday, and it was a very exciting one. We played Ogden at their home field and both Ogden Tigers and Clinton Seahawks went into this game with a 6-0 record for the season. Clinton ended up losing by a touchdown with the final score being 19-13. However, the boys played with all their heart and we were the only team to score on Ogden all season. I think the coaches were more shook up than the boys were. Levi was just excited that he was inviting his whole team to his bithday party this coming Sunday. He was a little bummed that they didn't win, but quickly got over it once we got home. We went to my parent's house for a weiner roast in celebration of a great season and Levi's birthday that is coming up, and he ended up staying over night while Paul and I took Sam to the emergency room. We couldn't get into the doctor last week, and I just had a feeling we would end up there before we could get in today. Turns out he has a nasty upper respiratory infection (which is what I've had for quite awhile now) and he is feeling much better.

I am on track to saving my house now. I called HopeNow and ended up getting further with the mortgage company than I have in the last 4 months. They conference called my mortgage company and finally found out what paperwork they were missing so we can do the Make Home Affordable program. While I'm not fond of Obama, I actually can't stand the man and think he's a joke, this is one program I am happy he implemented. We have come to the decision that we need to take on a roommate or room family of some kind though to help lower expenses. We have a whole basement that really isn't used, so that person or family would have their own living room, their own bathroom (as soon as we get it finished... right now it would be their own toilet and sink), and two bedrooms. They would have to share a kitchen and bathroom with us upstairs until the one downstairs was finished, but since we are only going to rent it out to someone we know then it wouldn't be a problem. Hopefully we can find someone soon and get caught up on everything and stay current on it. This whole not having a job thing and waiting for emergency unemployment to kick in totally screwed up everything, and hopefully we will get everything caught up before January when the house is scheduled to be sold.

I no longer have Kady and Nick during the day anymore because Natalie lost her job after being with the company for 12 years (I think... I know it was more than 10). I'm hoping to get this house cleaned spotless, maintain it, and get ALL of the laundry done and put away. And any clothing that is too small for Sammy I'm gonna sell or give away. So if you know anyone that is IN NEED of boys clothing size 2T or smaller let me know. I would like it to go to a truly needy family, not just one that is too cheap to go buy clothes for their kids because they feel there are other things that are more important. It really pisses me off when they say "my kids need this but I can't afford it" but they can go out and party or constantly use illegal drugs or always have beer, but they can't go to Wal-Mart and buy their toddler a shirt for $3.50 and a pair of pants for the same price. A whole outfit for the price of a 6-pack, but the 6 pack wins... pathetic. I know I had help and there have been times that I haven't exactly made the right decisions involving money, but I'm trying to change that now and would like to help someone that really needs it and doesn't have the money to buy clothes for their kids.

The diet has been going... and that's about it. I've been maintaining... I haven't gained, but I haven't lost either. It's time to get back on track and start losing again. I watched the first episode of Diet Tribe last night and I really like it. I like The Biggest Loser, but I find myself liking Diet Tribe much more. I think it's because the women are at home with their families while they are starting their weight loss journey. All 5 of these women have children, and they have all been friends for quite awhile. They aren't on a ranch where all other aspects of life stop and they get to focus solely on their weight loss goals - they are at home and real life is still going on. They still have to take the kids to school, go to work, take care of the home, go to extra-curricular activities, and find time to squeeze in exercise time and take time for themselves. They meet with a psychotherapist and attend group counseling as well as individual counseling. They feel guilty and also feel happy that they are taking time for themselves, and are not only working individually but also as a team. At the first weigh-in they set individual goals for 120 days, and at each weigh-in they set a goal for the team for the next week. They cheat on their diets, they feel guilty, they cry, they laugh, they talk, and they support each other, and they go on with life and learn from their mistakes. I highly recommend watching this show if you are trying to lose weight. It even made me lose the guilt I had from eating a couple of Snickers bars last week when times got tough, and if it can do that you know it has to be good  :)

Another show I have come to love this season since True Blood season 2 is over and season 3 is not scheduled to start until next summer is Drop Dead Diva. It's a crazy little show that you have to watch from episode 1 to totally understand what is going on, but you can come into it in the middle too. The main character is an overweight lawyer who passes away at the same time as a model, but the model doesn't accept she is dead and sends herself back to Earth but doesn't end up in her body. She has all these issues with her frumpy, overweight self in this new body and has to learn to live with it. I totally felt myself identifying with many of the issues in each episode, except for the whole not being able to tell people what really happened and having to work with your former boyfriend that doesn't know he's your former boyfriend. Anyway, if you can find it online (I found back episodes at www.surfthechannel.com) and haven't seen it, do it. You won't be disappointed.

Oh - and I was looking at Halloween costumes all day on the web yesterday, and I have come to the conclusion that costume designers and manufacturers have decided that Halloween was made for skinny people. Do you know how hard it is to find a costume that is over a size 16-18??? And then when you find it, if it's something you are looking for or have decided to settle for, you have to take out a small loan to purchase it. HELLO... WAKE UP DESIGNERS AND MANUFACTURERS!! FAT PEOPLE LIKE TO DRESS UP TOO!!! We need something affordable, cute or scary, and NOT totally revealing! I'm going to say this, and I can say it because I have the right to do it...

There are some things that should not be made for fat people. Things that show the belly, short short skirts, halter tops with a low back, and other such revealing things should not be made for fat people, and if they are, they should not be worn in public.

There - I said it. It's out there, and I'm not going to retract it. I've dressed conservatively my whole life to hide my fat. People say that some can pull it off with the right attitude. Wrong. No matter what attitude you have, if you are fat and your rolls are hanging out all over the place it's time to put it away. Far, far away. Where you can't get to it for awhile.


Well, it's time to start the laundry. I have been putting it off long enough. Until next time...