It's been a while...

Well, it's been a while since I've blogged so there's lots to catch up on.

For those of you that were following me, you know things got really bad for us last year. I am happy to say we still have our house, things are going better, and so far this year has been good.

When January 1st rolled around, I came to the conclusion that I was just gonna roll with life. God has a plan for everyone, and if I'm supposed to be off work and not have a job yet, so be it. I'm not sitting at home anymore wallowing in my self pity. I'm going out and doing things, even if Paul can't go with me when I'm invited to go. Just because he has to work or doesn't want to go doesn't mean that I can't, right? I'm a responsible adult and the people I go out with aren't THAT bad, and I know how to diffuse crappy situations if they happen. Some people would look at me going out by myself as being selfish, but after sitting in the house for more than a year with kids or by myself I have decided that to keep my sanity in tact (or to gain my sanity back and get my life back on track) I need it. So if you think I'm selfish or it's not right then oh well. Opinions are like assholes - everyone has one, and everyone thinks that theirs smells like roses and everyone else's stinks.

Anyway, back to this year...

I've been on a few job interviews, but nothing yet. I am still a candidate for a job I interviewed for earlier this month, and I have another interview tomorrow at a different company. The job market still sucks but is getting better. I have another month left on my unemployment, so I'm hoping I land something soon. Another extension would be nice to get me through the summer, but I'm ready to go back to work. I was ready two months after Hanjin laid me off, but like I said - God has a plan for everyone, and everything happens for a reason. When it's time the right thing will come along, and I'll be working OUTSIDE of the home again :)

There have been good things this year that deal with me not having a job...

1. I get to spend more time with my kids.
2. We qualified to refinance (and save) the house under the Making Home Affordable Program and our interest rates went down to 2% for this year, which dropped the house payment $300 a month and gave us a fixed interest loan that will not go over 5% EVER - YIPPEE!!!
3. The Tri-County Weatherization program replaced our water heater when it went out last November, and a couple weeks ago they replaced all of the windows in the house, put in a new furnace, new smoke detectors and carbon monoxide detectors all over the house, fixed the front door, and will be back soon to weatherstrip everything. Lemme tell you - I'm LOVING the new windows and the fact that I have a new lock on the front door and we can close it now without the fear of it blowing open or opening by itself.
4. I started bowling again with some fun people on Friday nights. Just getting out of the house and socializing with people has helped A LOT! My conversations now consist of more than "Look what Wubbzy is doing now mom!" and "I can't find my homework - who took it?!?"

I have also decided that I'm going to try and stop smoking this week. I have met a lot of neat people this year, and one in particular has made an impact on me to quit. So I may kill someone or be bitchy the next couple weeks, but it's for the better right? If I snap at you it's not you, it's the lack of nicotine in my system that's been there for the last 4 years again that is no longer there. So, I'm sorry in advance, don't take it to heart. If I call you or text you and just wanna talk please keep me occupied for the short time until the urge to smoke passes, okay? Feel free to pop me up, call me, or text me to check up on me too if you're bored or want to save a life... LMAO ;o)

Paul and I also went to SLC and stood in line for 8 hours at the open casting call of The Biggest Loser on the 20th of this month. It was a very interesting experience! They told us we need to send in a video tape now. We have a good idea, and with the help of some new and old friends I think we can get it done, get the attention of the producers, and get at least to the boot camp before being cast on the show. Hopefully we make it though the boot camp and get ON the show. I'm not sure Paul is ready for a lifestyle change, but I know I am. Which leads me to my next point...

Whether we make it on the show or not, I'm starting a lifestyle change. I know I said that last year when I started this blog, but I feel the way things are going now I can actually do it. I have a 7 year old that weighs 110 lbs and an 8 year old that just sits and watches television most of the time. I have a 3 year old that is obsessed with Nick Jr. - it's time to get my ass moving so I can get their asses moving. I am ready to join a gym (with daycare of course so I have something to do with Sam while I'm there) and start eating healthier. This depression has kicked my ass and now it's time for me to kick it! So if there is anyone that wants to join me just let me know! We can be the biggest losers at home!

Well, it's time for bed... have a good day tomorrow!